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January 09, 2013

moments of awkward

It's not a good day for me. Despite a good talk in the morning with a wise person who stole all my confidence from the very first time we met, the rest of the day was bad. I triggered two quarrels. One in the afternoon between my manager and my colleague, not about me or because of me, but as I said something and that was quoted in their quarrel, i felt so awkward. The other was between mom and grandma, this time  it was because of me, of my inconsideration and ingratitude for all the nice things that people bring me. I know I'm the spoiled child who doesn't care to know how much people love and worried about her. I know, i should stop feeling i'm the king and living carelessly and unthoughtfully, leaving upset to the ones who love me best T_T

A friend on facebook announced that she would be absent from fb for a little while, to concentrate on living her real life and working on her real targets.That makes me think about myself and the hundreds of times i told myself that i had to quit checking my friends' updates every day just to feel i'm living and connected.But just like her, for me, there's somewhat a need to communicate, in one way or another, with others. I love talking and listening to people, getting knowing their stories, through which my thoughts are provoked and developed and i myself feel motivated.That friend i havent got a chance to know much, but i've been following her stories and sharings both on fb and blog. Her thoughts and writings and feelings for life always inspire me so much, even when it was about the most solitude time in her life. I wish that brave girl will come back "stronger than ever" very soon as she promises, which a new blow of inspirations that she found on the way.